For Many Years Now, I Feel Like

Look, You Do Everything In Stages, Right? I Don't Think Everything Happens At Once. There Are So Many Layers We Are Constantly Chipping Away At, Down And Down And Down, Closer And Closer To What Would Be The Body. I Think What Happened With Cancer, Was That I Woke Up Out Of Nine Hours Of Surgery And I Was Body. I Was Just Body.

I Despise Charity. It Gives Crumbs To A Few And Silences The Others.

You Have Visits, Then You Have Disappearances. You Enter, Then You Exit. You Come, You Go. It Would Be So Great If You Could Just Get To Human Enlightenment On A Linear Path.

I Think The World Is Always Improving And Always Not Improving. I Think That Both Are Simultaneously Happening All The Time. I Don't Think It's One Motion Unfortunately - I Wish We Could Say It's Better, Better, Better - But I Think It's Better, Bad, Better, Bad - You Know?

We Get Off Track. Capitalism Takes Us Off Track. You Get Off The "real" And Get On The "wheel." The "wheel" Becomes The Winning And Losing, The Succeeding And Failing, The "i Will Achieve." All That Stuff Becomes So Preoccupying, Particularly If You're Born With Low Self-esteem, Or No Sense Of Yourself, Or Even If You're Just Born In The Consumer Culture. It's Very Powerful.