I Don't Feel Famous And I Didn't

A Few Years Back, When My Style Was "punk Grandma", I Picked Up An Amazing Pair Of Sandals - Orthopaedic Ones, With Really Thick Soles. I've Given Them Away To A Friend Now, Because These Days My Look Is More "1980s Substitute Teacher Gone Wild."

I Thought To Be Feminine Was To Give In To Straight Culture, Or The Beauty Standard, But In My Heart I Had A Flair For Fashion And Style. They Were Passions I Kept Secret Because I Didn't Understand I Could Love Clothes And Hair And Makeup And Still Like Girls.

To Be Thin And To Stay Really Thin, Sometimes Some People Literally Do Coke All The Time. Some People Smoke Cigarettes Instead Of Eating. That's Crazy. But That's 'okay' Because You Look Healthier.

When I Was A Teenager I Would Lock Myself In The Bathroom For Hours, Bouffanting My Hair Like Patty Duke And Trying To Recreate Barbra Streisand's Flawless Eyeliner, Only To Comb It All Out And Wash It All Off Before Stepping Out Into The World A Butchish Bisexual Teen.

Because I Didn't Have Any Queer, Lesbian, Female Role Models I Hated My Own Femininity And Had To Look Deep Within Myself To Create An Identity That Worked For Me. Pop Culture Just Doesn't Hand Us Enough Variety To Choose From.