I Don't Know How I Did It,

I Don't Think I Can Break Down Any Doors, But I'm Thinking, "maybe I Can Be A Cameraman, Because I Love The Cameras." And The Cameraman Would Show Me How To Thread The Film, How To Repair It, The Lenses. That's When You Become, Like, Goony Goo-goo About It. You Breathe And Eat Camera, And All Of A Sudden, You Don't Want Anything Else In The World. You Finally Know, "this Is My Calling." When You're Passionate About Something, It Doesn't Become Work. It's Art And It's Fun. It's Arduous, It's Sweaty.

I Tell Actresses, "if You're Too Tall, If You're Too Fat, You're Not Going To Work. I Don't Care How Talented You Are." It's A Business, And Sex Sells.

Me And My Sisters Were Taught That If Our Eyes Worked And Our Legs Worked, We Were Beautiful. We Had So Many Kids In Our Family That If We All Got In Front Of The Mirror And Were Ashamed Of Browns And Golds And Yellows And Whites, And We Believed What Society Told Us - That The Darker People Were Less Attractive And The Lighter Ones Were Prettier - We Would Have Had Sibling Murders. My Family, Being Half-rural And Half-military, Just Came From A Different Place.

Yes, You Can Have Art Films About The Triumph Of The Human Spirit And All Of That, But You'll Have It Done With A Big-budget Icon With A $20 Million Salary. You'll Have Julia Roberts, You'll Have Robert Redford, You'll Have Russell Crowe Doing Those Films, Because If They're Going To Cost $90 Million, They're Going To Make That Movie For A Public That's Very Large And Mainstream. They're Not Going To Make It For Three Or Four Million Black People.

Sometimes I'm Angry, Sometimes I'm Not Angry.