I Know I'm In The Band And

I Find It Hard To Meet The Right Woman As People Assume I'm A Certain Type Of Person - Which I'm Not.

It's Weird, I Was Such A Survivor And So Wanted To Be A Part Of Life While I Was Trying To Snuff Out The Life That Was Inside Of Me. I Had This Duality Of Trying To Kill Myself With Drugs, Then Eating Really Good Food And Exercising And Going Swimming And Trying To Be A Part Of Life. I Was Always Going Back And Forth On Some Level.

You Know What's The Worst? Being A 16 Year Old Girl Who Loves A Famous Singer, Not Solely For His Looks, But Because You Truly Believe He Is Talented And Devoted And You Agree Deeply With His Message. Because No Matter How Intelligently And Fully You Can Express That, People Will Assume You're Just A Silly Teenager Who Thinks A Famous Guy Is Cute.

When You Realize That There's A Name And A Description For This Condition That You Thought Was Insanity, You've Identified The Problem, And Now You Can Do Something About It.

My Sobriety Isn't Up For Discussion, But As For Vices, I Seem To Hack Away At Them With My Invisible Machete From Dawn Till Dusk. The Vice Of 'more' Is An Ongoing Theme.