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Buddhism Helps Me To Have A Healthy Relationship With My Body And Spirit.

I Had To Sit With My Senses. This Clear, Beautiful Intuition Took Over. I Knew Exactly How I Felt, And I Wasn't Confused Or Clouded Or Compromised. I Realized That None Of My Feelings Had Diminished, But I Might Have To Lose Someone I Truly Loved. I Didn't Want To Run Away From Claire, But I Knew Drug Addiction Was Strong Enough That I Had To Be Willing, If Need Be, To Let Go Of The Person I'd Just Fallen In Love With.

...for The First Time In My Life, A Voice Went Off In My Head:'you Have No Power Over What Happens In Your Life. Drugs Dictate Exactly What You're Going To Do. You've Taken Your Hands Off The Steering Wheel, And You're Going Wherever The Drug World Takes You.' That Had Never Changed. The Feeling Would Well Up Inside Of Me, And No Matter How Much I Loved My Girl Or My Band Or My Friends Or My Family, When That Siren Song 'go Get High Now' Started Playing In My Head, I Was Off.

I Stopped Hating And Started Just Being. My Whole Life, I Had Been The Most Defensive Person You'd Meet, Unable To Tolerate Any Criticism. But Now I Started Listening And Being.

When You Realize That There's A Name And A Description For This Condition That You Thought Was Insanity, You've Identified The Problem, And Now You Can Do Something About It.