I'm Impressed With A 90 Year Old

I Was Starting To Come To Grips With The Fact That I Had Created A Lot Of Pain And Suffering Around Me, Not Just Within Me.

It's Weird, I Was Such A Survivor And So Wanted To Be A Part Of Life While I Was Trying To Snuff Out The Life That Was Inside Of Me. I Had This Duality Of Trying To Kill Myself With Drugs, Then Eating Really Good Food And Exercising And Going Swimming And Trying To Be A Part Of Life. I Was Always Going Back And Forth On Some Level.

It Didn't Matter If I Got Bitten By A Dog Or I Ripped My Pants On The Fence Post Or I Poked Myself In The Eye With A Tree Branch That I Was Crawling Over, It Was All About The Shortcut. My Whole Life I Took The Shortcut, And I Ended Up Lost.

Music Itself Was Color-blind But The Media And The Radio Stations Segregate It Based On Their Perceptions Of The Artists.

I Had Not Had Any Drugs For 5 Years But Then I Relapsed Again. I Have Also Smoked Nearly Everything. Every Day It Was A Battle To Recover, Which I Fought For My Son And Myself.