I Need To See My Friends Or

I Like Loud Snare, And I Like Really Treble-y Guitars, And That's Just Never Going To Change.

I'm Sure If You See Things You Wrote When You Were 19, You Cringe. I Saw Stuff Like Angry Poetry That I Wrote When I Was Mad At My Father, Or Photos I Took Where I Smeared Period Blood On Myself. It's Embarrassing.

I Know That's Really Horrible, But That's How I Do It In My Head. I'm Going To Die. It Doesn't Matter. I Don't Matter. I'm A Grain Of Sand. As A Grain Of Sand, I May As Well Go Out And Relate To People And Enjoy My Short Time On This Planet That I Have. Who Knows What's Coming Next?

I'm A Big Proponent Of Open Adoption, Because It Allows A Relationship Between The Birth Mother And Her Child So That The Kid Isn't Like, "where Did I Come From?" And To Have It Be Like, "look, You Have A Bunch Of People Who Love You." Not Just The Parents Who Are Raising You On A Day-to-day Basis, But Also To Have Contact With Your Birth Mother And Hopefully Your Birth Father. So That You Can Be Like, "oh, They Love Me Too, And They Love Me So Much That They Knew They Couldn't Take Care Of Me But They're Still In My Life To Some Extent."

My Illness Has Changed Me - I've Always Thought "life Is Short And I Wanna Make As Much Of It As I Can," But I Really Don't Have Time To Mess Around. This Has Really Been A Wake-up Call In Terms Of What's Important, And I'm Working Hard To Figure That Out. I Need To Get Better At Not Doing Favors For People All The Time. It's Hard Because There's So Many People Who Have Helped Me Get To The Point Where I'm In A Band That People Wanna Come See, Or Where People Pay Money To See Me Lecture.