I Used To Be Able To Be

There's A Thing, In General, About Doing Any Kind Of Series, Especially When The Characters Remain The Same, To Go Back And Try To Improve Whatever You Did In The Last Movie, Which Never Happens.

I Thought I Knew It All. Again, I Knew Absolutely Nothing.

All The Time. A Few Months Ago I Came Really Close To Losing It, I Was Getting Really Paranoid. And Then I Started A New Job, Things Fixed Themselves. I Can't Turn My Back On The Situation And Ignore It. If Tomorrow I Say: "okay, I've Had Enough, We're Stopping Everything" It Won't Change Anything. Might As Well Try To Accept It And Stay Zen As I Have No Control Over It.

I Still Had The Same Frustration With Trying To Play [edward Cullen], The Entire Way Through, Right Up Until The Last Shot. It's A Strange Part Because, On The One Hand, A Lot Of The Audience Projects Their Idea Of Edward[cullen] Onto Him. It Doesn't Matter What He Is. They Want Him To Be A Certain Way. And Then, My Instincts Were To Try And Play It And To Try To Find The Fallibility In Him And The Weaknesses.

In America There Is A Channel Called Trutv Which Is Just Reruns Of 'cops' And 'world's Dumbest Criminals'. I Could Watch That The Entire Day.