Over And Over Again, I'm Trying To

People Ask 'how Does Doing A Film Compare To Doing An Ad?' Well, When You're Doing A Commercial You Don't Have To Sell Tickets. You Have A Captured Audience. Which Is Actually Completely Rare And Great; It Gives You A Lot Of Freedom. When You Make A Film, You Have To Do Advertisements For The Film.

I Would Hate To Think I'm Promoting Sadness As An Aesthetic. But I Grew Up In Not Just A Family But A Town And A Culture Where Sadness Is Something You're Taught To Feel Shame About. You End Up Chronically Desiring What Can Be A Very Sentimental Idea Of Love And Connection. A Lot Of My Work Has Been About Trying To Make A Space For Sadness.

L.a. Is So Isolated And Unhip In A Way; It Gives You Room To Figure Out Who You Are And Explore More Personal Stuff.

There Is A Drunkenness To Grief, Which Is Good.

Ok, So My Parents Were Married In 1955 And My Mom Knew My Dad Was Gay And My Dad Knew He Was Gay And So I Was, Like, 'why In The Heck Did You Get Married?' Like, What Was Going On? What Was That Time? It's Like This Crazy Paradox That My Whole Life Is Based On, Or My Family's Based On. So I Spent A Lot Of Time Trying To Understand '55.