Pain Is Temporary, Film Is Forever.

My Whole Life, Meeting People Is Like A Blind Date, Because I Feel Like They've Already Seen The Video On Me.

Lance Armstrong Showed Up, And I Started Talking To Him; I Saw All These People With Cancer Who Followed Him To Paris For The Tour De France, And I Saw The Difference He Was Making In Their Lives. That Put It Together For Me...having It Be Not So Much About Me, But [my Being] A Vehicle For It.

My Natural State Is One That's Affected By The Shortage Of Dopamine Production In My Brain. So My Natural State Is To Be Halting And At Times Tremulous And Kind Of Just Physically Disturbed. I Mean, That's My Natural State, Given The Situation In My Brain. But I'm Always As Happy Either Way. And So When It Comes To Me, Body Language Lies.

Now I Feel And I Say All The Time That Vanity Is, Like, Long Gone. I'm Really Free Of Worrying About What I Look Like, Because It's Out Of My Shaky Hands. I Don't Control It. So Why Would I Waste One Second Of My Life Worrying About It?

To Be Brutally Honest, For Much Of That Time, I Was The Only Person In The World With Parkinson's. Of Course, I Mean That In The Abstract. I Had Become Acutely Aware Of People Around Me Who Appears To Have The Symptoms Of Parkinson's Disease, But As Long As They Didn't Identify With Me, I Was In No Rush To Identify With Them. My Situation Allowed, If Not Complete Denial, At Least A Thick Padding Of Insulation.