I Have No Desire To Play Music

I've Always Been Interested In Queerness And Underground And Fringe And Periphery, And Who And What Flourishes In Those Spaces. Those Spaces That Are Darker And Dingier And More Dangerous, More Lonely. What Comes Out Of There, To Me, Is The Life Force. I'm Excited When The Center Reaches Over To Those Places And Pulls Inspiration From Them, And Translates It For A Lot Of People.

If Your Whole World Of A Band Or Music Is Taking Place In A Digital Realm Or On Technological Devices, It's All Mediated Through Those Things. That Takes Away From The Experiential And Sensual Nature Of Music. That's A Lot Less Exciting For Me To Think About. It's Not My Ideal Way Of Living With Music.

You'd Hope That No Writing About Music Could Supersede The Music Itself. But I Do Think That Blogs Mirror The Way That We Are Listening. It Comes At You Fast And It's Timely And Then Five Minutes Later We're On To Something Else. It Caters To Our Desire For Instant Gratification. And I Think Blogs Also Have Fluidity That's Exciting. You Have A Lot Of Real Enthusiastic Music Fans For The Most Part That Are Writing Sometimes For A Large Audience, And I Think Certain Blogs Have A Little Too Much Power Over What Someone Likes Or Doesn't Like.

To Me, The Grotesque Is Like A Sonic Manifestation Of Reality. I Don't Know How You Could Look Out Onto Our World And See Only Beauty. And I Like Beautiful Things. I Like The Aesthetically Harmonious. But I Am Much More Attracted To Something That Is Off-kilter. It Is A Truer Reflection Of Not Only Nature, But The Human Spirit - The State Of The World. I Just Think Everything Feels A Little Off.

It's Very Common To Think That We're Always Evolving, That We've Changed So Much From Our Younger Selves, That Within Decades We've Transformed Into These Different People. We Like To Think That. I Feel In Some Ways That I Am Still So Much My Younger Self. There Are Ways That I'm Different: I Feel Like I'm Wiser And Kinder. But I Think A Lot Of The Impulses Are Still The Same. I Learned That.