I Have No Desire To Play Music

I Think One Of The Reasons I Haven't Been Doing Music Is Because I Think That Some Of My Performance, Like, Needs Are Being Taken Care Of In Other Mediums.

I'm Interested In The Crevices, And The Grotesque, And The Unsavory. That Started Out When I Was Young... I've Never Quite Been Able To Shake That.

I Grew Up Outside Of Seattle, And Have Lived Here My Whole Life, And I Think That There Is A Culture Of Questioning, And Guilt. Almost An "anti-ambition." Like, An Awareness, And Then A Subsequent Guilt. But Sometimes That Progressive, Liberal Guilt Is Really Obnoxious, Too - In Some Ways, I Think It's Better To Just Own It. It's Weird, That Actually, The Acknowledgement Of Privilege Or The Enactment Of Guilt Can Be As Obnoxious As Anything Else. It's A Never-ending Rabbit Hole. We're Really In A Rabbit Hole Right Now, With This Conversation. We're Just Spiraling Down Into The Void.

I Have No Desire To Play Music Unless I Need Music.

Music Has Always Been My Constant, My Salvation. It's Cliche To Write That, But It's True.