The Fact That I Was A Junkie

Desecration Is The Smile On My Face.

When You Start Putting Pen To Paper, You See A Side Of Your Personal Truth That Doesn't Otherwise Reveal Itself In Conversation Or Thought.

Every Time You Empty Your Vessel Of That Energy, Fresh New Energy Comes Flooding In.

It's Weird, I Was Such A Survivor And So Wanted To Be A Part Of Life While I Was Trying To Snuff Out The Life That Was Inside Of Me. I Had This Duality Of Trying To Kill Myself With Drugs, Then Eating Really Good Food And Exercising And Going Swimming And Trying To Be A Part Of Life. I Was Always Going Back And Forth On Some Level.

It Was Because All We Wanted Was Each Other's Constant Love And Attention And For No One Else To Receive That Love And Attention, Which Is A Selfish And Difficult Place To Be In A Relationship. We Were Emotionally Retarded, And That Was The Best We Could Do At The Time.